I was supposed to go visit another twin mama friend today. We planned it out last night: I would wake up at 6:45 a.m., get the girls loaded, take Andy to work, come back, do naps and get ready, do second nap, and then head over whenever they woke up. Then, I would pick Andy up at 3:00, take him to a job interview (!), and wait for him while visiting another friend who lives close by. This is all considering the girls cooperate. Ha!
For some strange reason, both girls decided to be up from 3 a.m. to 5:30 a.m. this morning. We did recently take the binkies away at night, but they've been doing well, so I'm not sure what happened. When Andy woke me up to see if I still wanted to take him to work, I told him to just go ahead; I didn't want to wake them after the last few hours.
Wouldn't you know it, five minutes after he leaves, they're both awake and ready to play.
I wanted to cry, but had no energy. After a peek out the window, I see so much rain. Brilliant! Not only are we up early, but we also won't be going outside at all. I start praying fervently that they will be in the best moods of their short little lives today. After this morning, chances are slim.
If these are your first children, it may take you months longer to adjust. I have some friends who, a week or so after having their baby, were already out for breakfast or visiting friends or going to church. We haven't been to church since July, and our home community attendance is hit-or-miss. I want breakfast so bad I can taste it. I want to go and do like we used to, and I can't. It's hard.
I'm quick to berate myself and wonder why I can't get it together to be out and social like before, and maybe the reason is because I'm lazy, or doing something wrong, or being too strict with their naps. I know part of the reason is because we only have one car, so if I don't take him in the morning, I'm neighborhood-bound. But none of the other reasons are true. So I've realized that I need to have double the grace in this area, and realize that it's simply harder when you're juggling two little baby schedules.
So if you're new at this like I am, be kind to yourself and don't compare or expect to be able to handle a singleton mom's load with only one of you and two of them. Know that however long it takes you to adjust is the right amount of time for you. Pretty soon you'll have it down. I'm hoping I do.